Alison’s Mind

So I got an email from my junior high, early high school best friend. Talk about a blast from the past! It is strange though how suddenly someone from so long ago can evoke such strong memories! Music tends to do the samething to me. In fact, I was listening to my ipod the other day and a Chris Isaak song came on, oh you know the one…”what a wicked game you play, to make me feel this way”…yada yada…, annnyyyway, whenever Chris Isaak comes on I think of Maryclaire, my old friend, and I think of how young we were, how serious we thought we were, how much fun we used to have. Now, we are both married with children, living a grown up lives, but are we all that different from our younger selves? Let’s compare memory lane to grown-up street…. (at least my lane and my street)

Then…Watched a T.V. show where the main character was a vampire in love with a human (Dark Shadows)

Now…Watch a T.V. show where the main character is a vampire and is in love with a human ( Moonlight)

Then…New Kids On the Block were “Hangin’ Tough”

Now…New Kids On the Block are…well…ummmm..”Hangin’ Tough”
Then…Collecting autographs of who I thought was “BIG”
Now…Still trying to collect autographs of who I think is “BIG”
Well you get the idea…so how much have we really changed? Grown? Do we all just suddenly one day turn the switch from who we were as teens to adults? I believe that we will always be who we liked ourselves best as, who we felt we really were. Me, I will always in my mind be that silly, young girl with a crush on a TV character, sining along to her fave music, collecting autographs. The only difference is that I know what my life holds and I am happy with it how it has turned out. I no longer have that uncertainness hanging over my head.
So for all of you out there afraid to make contact with someone from your past for fear of seeing who your old self was, perhaps your old self never left, but just got a few grays and the tempo of the music changed.

A